Back again after a long pause.

Somehow did not find the urge to blog on any topics for a while. It was definitely not the lack of time but lack of interest to vent out thoughts . Somehow it seemed useless for a while. Today was different though, somehow I had to put these thoughts out.

My sister just passed her 12th and is now with me enjoying her holidays. She seemed to observe few things in my life. Not that I had never realised it, but I needed someone to remind me again and again. She said 'Your life is so mechanical akka'. Indeed, it was very mechanical. My maid is not coming for work from past one month. I get up, do all my household work, cook, clean, take shower, drive to ofc, do some boring work at ofc, come back home late and then watch the idiot box for a while and then hit the bed. If I would miss any item in this routine then I would get worked up thinking about it. stress, stress and more stress. I have spent half my life just taking stress on useless things in life.

So whats the solution? Ahh... tough one!

?? Ambition - Too much is too bad and trying to run too fast makes you tired too soon. Ambition is good but it should meet content at the right time.

?? Race - Sometimes I wonder whom am I racing against? Its my insecurity I believe, that keeps telling me that I need to be in the race all the time.

??Money - Very Essential. But does it ever seem enough?

??Emotions - I am very weak at it.. half the time I get stressed because of being emotional and not practical. I expect a lot from myself and as well from the people I love. That makes it extremely difficult for me sometimes to be normal.

??Health - It is the most neglected entity of my life. I dont give a damn about my health and thats the root of all my problems.

??Environment - Yes, my surroundings do contribute to my stress levels. Traffic, people, system.. everything.

Would balancing all the above make me stress free? I think so to a certain extent.

The basic issue here is the 'mind', the way it thinks, the way thoughts flow in and out, the speed in which it links things, the level in which it makes you scared, insecure, lazy and sometimes ill. It is the main tool that has all the control buttons and seems like I am always submissive to its mighty powers. One thing for sure, If I need to lead a stress free life, I need to have a stress free mind and that comes only by learning the art of mastering my mind rather letting my mind master me! Always easy said than done, but no pain means no gain!

-D