Junk..Junk..Junk..

Its been quite a while, but I have always enjoyed writing here in this forum, my personal space. So many things happening in life. With work, house and hundred other things that needs my priority I feel lost. Meet new people, have few crushes, have few setbacks and just laugh amidst all these. Thats how life has been. Decide to focus on one work and another takes the front seat. I have always struggled to understand why my life has been so complicated. Rather my thinking and way of looking at life has been complicated. I try hard to change it each time, but I seem to be coming back to it again and again. There is no rule or restriction that filters my thoughts each time. Its been a hard journey so far with myself and my thoughts, my tantrums, my emotions, my negatives, my failures... Its all about 'me' all the time. I know its sick, but I fail to control it. There has been no creative thinking and positive outlook, all I see is remorse and regret and negativity all around. It makes me feel shitty at times, but I dont do anything about it. I have been always wanting to be someone else and it has killed me.. Each time when I think about blogging, I want to write about a place or a food or some social cause or current affair..but I end up writing about myself, me and my thoughts... Cant help it! :(