I believe no one in this world is completely honest to another person. We all fake it up most of the times. We try to manipulate the original 'us' to someone who could please others, who could be admired by others. Not all the time, but most of the times we are bound to fake it becuase of the situation.
whenever I think about honesty, I ask myself - Am I a honest daughter, honest sister, honest friend and honest wife. I could relate myself to other roles/entities, but these are the most important roles were I would want to ask myself whether I am being honest. The answer is obvious and the answer is No. I am not the odd man out.. I am sure 99.999% of the human population fall under the same category as me.
The bigger question that arises to me is how honest am I to myself? Ofcourse my soul or conscious constantly reminds me each time when I go wrong.. may be the smallest of things... like eating junk things when I am actually on a diet...
I dont know about other people, but for me being honest to myself looks like a bigger challenge... I appear to make resolutions, decisions and all you know again I dont follow any of them. Isnt it being dishonest to myself? I always promised myself that I will study well and pass in distinction.. but did not do it. I always promised myself to reduce weight and get fit and healthier, again didnt do it.. Likewise there are many such small and big things that I have promised myself, but failed to keep up the promise.
When I retrospect or to be precise introspect, I realise most of the problems that I have landed myself to was without being honest to myself.
I am not sure if this discovery of me not being honest to myself would trigger my honest harmones to go and confess to people, but from this moment onwards I will put my sincere effort to be honest to myself and to an extent to other people around me.
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