So called 'Work'

Its been a long time since I blogged. I have been extremely busy in office with never ending deployments and KT sessions. I am now getting the knowledge transfer from my australian colleague for a different application. The role is new to me and its all about management, financials, reports..etc Then there would be Statement of Work response( Which is so tedious).. good part is there is a lot of learning curve. There is exposure to real business to an extent. The work involved in this role is more like a consulting type. Sounds good.. but lot to learn. Lots to catch up. But there is a saying in Kannada, 'Kaliyuva tanaka brahma vidye, kalitha mele kothi vidye' !! I feel so lazy to read up lot of notes and trying to understand new concepts. 

If you are working for a big organiszation, there will be a lot of process to follow for even smallest things. This irritates me so much that I sometimes think I should quit all this and start doing something that I really enjoy and love. But I end up thinking most of the times what is that I like to do, what is that field that would interest me and as as well earn me some good money. As usual I do not have much practical answers. Definetely at this stage of life where there is a load of responsibilities on my shoulder I cant invest time and money to percieve another profession. May be I am scared to take that risk, I agree. But if it was just me, I could have always experimented, but thats not the case anyways. 

Recently I was reading about a professional development program in my organisation. This program is mandatory for every employee if he or she aspires to have a band or position progression. I was terrified looking at the topics and the concepts this program had. There are core capabilities to be justified with live examples and there are dimension capabilities half of which does not make sense to me. On top of working day and night we are supposed to do all this programs if we want promotion. This is additional to the normal appraisal process followed. There is a people manager and there are hierarchy of project managers who would definetely know how we perform, what are the activities we are involved in etc. When such a visibility is already existing why all this additional programs to prove our abilities. Why cant things be just kept simple????

Anyways I am sure this will be the story of every big company where influence speaks more than talent !

Coming back again; when I repeatedly think about my interesting areas of work, two things comes to my mind. Being a 'chef' or an 'interior designer'. I love to cook and experiment and I love interior designing. I did  some research about online interior courses but the fees was all sky high and I am not sure even if I could invest so much time to do justice to the money that I have paid. At the end I feel,  I will always be thinking and planning about what I want to do, where I want to travel, what courses I want to enrol, but implement none of these.  I feel pathetic when I think about my attitude sometimes, but honestly I feel I need a break to percieve all that I like.

Can I ever get that kind of a break?? Let me wait and see.....

-D