Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara

On a dull Friday evening, when I am feeling lonely, felt that I should just write to myself, in my blog, my frustration zone, my personal space :) And when I start writing, I have no clue what to scribble! My hubby keeps saying that I am a confused person and very inconsistent. How True, Can't agree more with him. Life has given me enough, but I always want more, expect more out of myself and from others and end up being unhappy! Feels like taking a solo break,it will be only mei or meri tanhayee :) I am sure it would be very relaxing and peaceful. Afterall its very important to establish that connection with the inner self..:) Seem to have lost myself somewhere, actually if I think about it, I am missing myself, the real me, missing my music, missing my carefree attitude, missing my happiness, missing my goal to live life happily, missing the meaning of my life!! I have been lost in some path and have no idea where I am heading to..! Though it all makes sense when my emotional mind is ruling me, but my focus has changed from being happy to being sad. I would never break my head for trivial things, but somehow now every detail seem to matter so much, every small thing hurts! Going with the flow, not thinking too much, loosing touch with my real self...In the end its the path I take is not whats bothering me, but its the inability to stay happy in that path is what concerns me. For a while I started thinking for myself, what is it that I truly want in life, the instantaneous answer was, the ability to stay happy and to make my loved ones happy and to stay at peace with myself but when I don't see that happening I am a little upset on myself.! I hope next time when I feel like writing again, I will be a little more positive about life and thank life for what it has given me.